I have realized that I have a huge pride problem. It’s probably one of my biggest sins. I take pride in my achievements, my character, and even how religious I am. I’m going to dig into the reason I am prideful in each of these areas. In college, I have mostly only studied Religion and Communications courses. These courses are in addition to the General Education classes I am required to take for my degree. I am prideful of how many internships I have had since I have been in college and the activities I have done at school.

Communications is sort of a showy major. It’s one of those majors where you are in the public’s eye. I volunteer for a radio station on campus, and I have even had one of my customers at work call me a celebrity for being on the radio. I also have a blog that has 650 views, over 330 visitors, and I have had at least one view from 9 different countries.

Though the area I am least proud of with my pride is how religious I believe I am. I at times have not shared the gospel to someone because for some reason or another I didn’t like them. I at times have thought I am better than people because I intern at a larger church in the area. I at times haven’t loved or appreciate someone the way I should have. This is NOT ok!

I’m not saying all the previous things to brag. Honestly it quite the contrary. It’s a problem, and I don’t want to be like that. Though if I am being honest partially the reason I come off as prideful is because I am at times insecure. I am insecure about my future. I cognitively know that God has a plan for my life, but I have a hard time trusting that He works all things for my good. I am insecure of my past mistakes. I have what I believed messed up, and I have a hard time accepting grace and forgiving others.

And I am probably the most insecure of my past. I perceive that I have lost many relationships with past friends and past love interests due to my medical history. One thing I have heard from a wise person that “People are in your life for a season or reason”. I am so thankful for this! I have had to come to terms with if someone is out of your life your season with them might be over.

I want to take a moment to thank the people that have stayed in my life even through my medical problems. I want to thank the people that continue to love and care about me!

There is a difference between pride and confidence. I want more confidence instead of pride. I want to be confident in the power of the gospel and prayer. I want to be confident in the power of God. I want to be obedient to whatever He calls of me.

One thing I have been learning the past couple months is that if you have a sin that you should confess it. So, I am confessing that I have a pride problem. I also pray that God helps me improve in this sin in my life.

Scripture References

1. “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding” ~ Proverbs 3:5 NIV
2. “A fool’s mouth lashes out with pride, but the lips of the wise protect them” ~ Proverbs 14:3
3. “For when I preach the gospel, I cannot boast, since I am compelled to preach. Woe to me if I do not preach the gospel!” ~ 1 Corinthians 9:16 ESV
4. “Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms“ Ephesians 6:10-12 NI 

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