For the past 7 years I have dreamed of a future with you. Many times I thought I was completely over you, but I would always find myself running back to you when things didn’t work out with the other guys I have liked. I kept hoping that you would eventually ask me out, and then we would start dating and live happily ever after together.

I thought I was completely over you, but now I am 100% sure that my dream with you has ended. I used to pray that God would make it extremely clear that I was supposed to move on, and he did make it extremely obvious that our fairytale was over. I actually had peace and relief from realizing that our future together wouldn’t happen.

You taught me a lot from our sort of relationship, and I want to thank you for what you have taught me. You taught me that I need to love myself enough to walk away. You taught me that love at first sight can happen in real life. You taught me that as much as I tried I could never force a relationship with you.

I don’t know the reason why it never worked out between us. I don’t know what I did for everything to change. Which is probably for the better for me. I don’t know why I wasn’t good enough for you, and I think I would hurt even more to know the reason why you didn’t see a future with me.

Would I wish that I never cared about you with now knowing how much you would hurt me? Honestly, I would rather have loved and lost it all than never have had all the good memories. So I am going to try to put the bad memories in the past and not dwell upon them. I’m going to try to remember you for all the fun times we have shared over the years. You used to be my best friend that was a guy, and I want to remember you for that. You’re now a guy I used to be good friends with though.

The one reason I am the most thankful for is that you challenged
me to be better. I’ve realized that I could live without you and still be independent and accomplished. I’m a stronger and more successful person now than I was when we were friends. I want the best for you. Though if I am being honest I hope one day I see you again and I can tell you how great I am doing in life. I don’t want you back, but I hope one day you’ll realize how much you lost by pushing me away.

Because of you I realized that my initial fairytale relationship won’t come true, but I am hoping and praying for my fairytale relationship to be with someone who treats me better than you did.

Scripture Reference

• “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.” ~1 Corinthians 13:4-8 NIV
• “Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.” ~Psalm 27:14 NIV
• “Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.¹⁰ Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves”~ Roman 12:9-10 NIV

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